about me.

I am very indecisive. i cant spell. I screw up all the time. I do stupid thngs. I make horrible decisions. I think too much. Im too apathetic. I stuggle in school. And left to myself im nothing more than dirt.. But im also covered by the blood of Christ. You might think im awesome, but you wouldnt think that if you were stuck in my head for a day. You might dislike me ,but its probly for the wrong reasons. I love God, my family and my church, specificaly the youthgroup....And i love all of the above listed more than i ever show them. I love sports. I love working out. One day i think i might want to be a youth minister and/or fitness trainer. sooooo yeah...thats about it off the top of my head. =]

Monday, April 19, 2010

aspects of a godly man

Hey a good friend of mine just turned 15, and for his birthday his dad had a man ceromony for him. He had a buch of guys get together after playing a beast game of basketball and tell him what they thought it looked like t be a Godly man. So i just wanted to share with yall what i shared with him....this is a very condenced version however.

part of being a godly man, is leadership. And what i see in the men that i respect and love the most is love, humility, and service....look at the greatest servant of all, and therefor, man or vice versa, Jesus Christ. He was known as the suffering servant, he was perfectly loveing and perfectly humble...the best leaders are those who first and foremost, serve with joy because of their love and humility.

And also maturity. Being a man is not instant like i think austin or jordan said. its a process called maturity. And this year the aspect of maturity that God has shone me is that maturity is not perfection, its learning how to deal with your lack of perfection in a way that is honoring to the Lord.
so seek Love and you will find humility, find humility and you will serve, serve and you will be a better leader. Be content in all things, find joy in all through Christ, and you will find maturity.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Break thou the bread of Life- Mary A. Lathbury

break thou the bread of life, dear Lord,to me,
As thou didst break the loaves beside the sea;
Throughout the sacred page I seek thee, Lord,
My spirit pants for thee, O living Word.

Bless thou the truth, dear Lord, to me, to me,
As thou didst bless the bread by Galilee;
Then shall all bondage cease, all fetters fall;
And i shall find my peace, my all in all.

Thou art the bread of life, O Lord, to me,
thy holy Word the truth that saveth me;
Give me to eat and live with thee above;
Teach me to love thy truth, for thou art love.

O send thy Spirit, Lord, now unto me,
that he may touch mine eyes, and make me see:
show me the truth concealed within thy Word,
And in thy book revealed I see the Lord.

Monday, March 29, 2010

O for a thousand tongues to sing-Charels Wesley

O for a thousand tongues to sing
my great Redeemers praise,
The glories of my God and King,
The triumphs of His grace.

My gracious Master and my God,
Assist me to proclaim,
To spread through all the earth abroad,
The honors of Thy name.

Jesus! the name that charms our fears,
That bids our sorrows cease;
'Tis music in the sinners ears,
'Tis life and health and peace.

He breaks the pow'r of reighning sin,
He sets the prisoner free;
His blood can make the foulest clean;
His blood availed for me.

He speaks and, list'ning to His voice,
New life the dead recieve;
The mournful, broken hearts rejoice;
The humble poor believe.

Hear him, ye deaf; his praise, ye dumb,
Your loosened tongues employ,
Ye blind, behold your Savior come;
And leap, ye lame, for joy.

Glory to God and praise and love
Be ever giv'n
By saints below and saints above-
The church in eath and heav'n.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

riding the roller coster of life.

Dude....God is good....im not....yet he loves me anyways....thats legit...yet i always try to earn his favor like he hasnt already given it to me....i seek for pleasure in other things instead of Him....im trying to find the balance between accepting grace and mourning over my sin...its not easy. im striving to seek joy in everything through God, keep my eyes focused on the goal set before me, seek to be one with all Christians, seek other people love in humility (which i am suckin at)...my emotions have been kinda wack....its hard when those people you consider your best friends only see you as an aquantences....or anyways thats how i feel....and then i get scared that i only feel that way beacause im not always the center of attention and its just me being attention hungry or whatever.....and then you dont want to force them to be your friend out of obligation...you cant make someone like you.....and then i feel like crap cuz i know i shouldnt let that stuff bother me becuase all i need is God and through worring about that i am not recognizing Him as my true satisfatction.....sooo yeah...im super pumped about young guns and going to plya del Carmen this summer....that is if i graduate....but God is incontrole and all will workout for Him and His glory.

Monday, March 15, 2010

quotes

Perhaps there is not one leaf of atree, nor spire of grass, but what has efffects all over the universe, and will have to the end of eternity.-Jonothan Edwards

i find letters from God dropped in the street, and every one is signed by Gods name, and i leave them where they are, for i know that others will punctually come forever-Walt whitman.

Monday, March 8, 2010

so many thoughts in my head.

they come and go. Often times i cant sort them out. Thats why at times its hard for me to have a decent conversation with someone....especialy if i dont feel comfortable around them because i overanalize everything i think about saying because as a kid growing up people just looked for ways to mess with me and if i said one thing wrong they jumped on it, so now i cant hardly say anything around people im not completely comfortably with in some kind of subconcious fear of being judged for it. But then there are times that i am completely comfortable and i just end up saying things that are completely stupid. I usualy just end up saying something stupid when i am with people i dont feelcomfortable around cuz i just dont know what to say.

Monday, March 1, 2010

i cant hink of the next lines to this!! its so frustrating!

vanity,like a rose, will wither away.
Beauty once adhored will with time decay.