just venting, this isnt suppose to be a master peice.

i have messed up alot in my day, seen alot of hardships and pain in my day. i have been around the block, in the hotseet not knowin what to say. feelin all alone, like im sinkin in a hole with nobody around, not a whisper not a sound. the worst part is, im not even screamin or reachin. idk where to start to ask for help. i have the instruction book in my hands. its heavy in my mind. ive flipped through it but its like a puzzle and i dont know where to start. i got bits and peices but i still feel like im left in the dark. all i see is what i dont have. im so focused on the depth of this hole that im in that i ignore the ladder that reaches all the way up to the end.