about me.

I am very indecisive. i cant spell. I screw up all the time. I do stupid thngs. I make horrible decisions. I think too much. Im too apathetic. I stuggle in school. And left to myself im nothing more than dirt.. But im also covered by the blood of Christ. You might think im awesome, but you wouldnt think that if you were stuck in my head for a day. You might dislike me ,but its probly for the wrong reasons. I love God, my family and my church, specificaly the youthgroup....And i love all of the above listed more than i ever show them. I love sports. I love working out. One day i think i might want to be a youth minister and/or fitness trainer. sooooo yeah...thats about it off the top of my head. =]

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

riding the roller coster of life.

Dude....God is good....im not....yet he loves me anyways....thats legit...yet i always try to earn his favor like he hasnt already given it to me....i seek for pleasure in other things instead of Him....im trying to find the balance between accepting grace and mourning over my sin...its not easy. im striving to seek joy in everything through God, keep my eyes focused on the goal set before me, seek to be one with all Christians, seek other people love in humility (which i am suckin at)...my emotions have been kinda wack....its hard when those people you consider your best friends only see you as an aquantences....or anyways thats how i feel....and then i get scared that i only feel that way beacause im not always the center of attention and its just me being attention hungry or whatever.....and then you dont want to force them to be your friend out of obligation...you cant make someone like you.....and then i feel like crap cuz i know i shouldnt let that stuff bother me becuase all i need is God and through worring about that i am not recognizing Him as my true satisfatction.....sooo yeah...im super pumped about young guns and going to plya del Carmen this summer....that is if i graduate....but God is incontrole and all will workout for Him and His glory.
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6 comments:

  1. Hannah MiddletonMarch 18, 2010 at 7:56 AM

    although it is true that all you need is God...God has also made us where we need a help mate, a friend, a group of close companions, and someone to depend on. We as humans cannot live without having those in our life so it is understandable that you feel that way! In the begining God said it was not good for man to be alone. This not only applies to a marriage but to a simple friendship as well! We as Christians need fellowship and therefore must seek believers who we can do so with...not people who judge you and hold against you every mistake you have made but those who have learned to forgive and move on and start over! Forgiveness relieves so much burden from both parties and even when it it hard, God still commands that we forgive and love one another.

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  2. chazMarch 18, 2010 at 5:46 PM

    sooo true. =]

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  3. chazMarch 18, 2010 at 5:49 PM

    and good point. =]

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  4. Simone BolivarMarch 18, 2010 at 6:23 PM

    the way ive found it is that when we get to caught up in thought the enemy uses it as a tool to distract you from God. Dont over-analyze things to much in this life, they're onyl temporary. When you do screw up, make amends, it is never to late to do the right thing. never.

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  5. chazMarch 18, 2010 at 6:26 PM

    exactly man! yeah i overanalyze things ALL the time! and yes i do my very best to make ammends.

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  6. chazMarch 18, 2010 at 6:28 PM

    the first 6 statements of my about me thing up above are due to my overanalyzations.

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